O Christmas Tree!

 November 11, 2022

104 days

Yesterday evening was another huge accomplishment for me.  The task...shopping for a new Christmas tree! Sometimes, the simplest things, an alcoholic will turn into something formidable. My challenge was to actually enjoy doing something with my family, without thinking about alcohol the entire time.  I accomplished that!!! I also had fun and felt very loved. 

Our evening began going to Lowe's to look at artificial trees.  We have always bought real Christmas trees in the past, but to be honest, I am tired of the mess and hassle a real tree brings.  Real trees also don't smell like I always dreamed they would.  At this point, I can buy a candle to capture that ambiance! LOL! James and I argued like we normally do about price and styles, etc. We are not perfect by any means, but I love that man whole-heartedly. We left Lowe's without any luck! 

Our next stop was Home Depot! We walked in, and I felt like I was in the scene from Chevy Chase's Christmas Vacation. The scene where he spots the perfect family Christmas tree! There it was.  Just the right size for our family and our house, and the best part was that James and I AGREED!  We also left very happy with our purchase.  

Let me just say this...we have two of the best kids, because at 17 (both of them) they still seemingly like to spend time with us.  After Home Depot, we decided to go eat at Fujiyama's. This is a place where we have had many celebrations!  Some of those, I know my drinking caused stress for the entire family.  Believe it or not, none of that even crossed my mind though yesterday evening.  I was savoring the time I could spend with my family.  I WASN'T thinking about how soon the waitress could bring me my next drink or things I had done in the past.

Our seating was in the bar area.  As I have mentioned repeatedly, these types of things I do not let get to me.  I have to push through any triggers and get used to this new life.  Now, I will say, that a strategy I use when sitting in bar areas, is to sit with my back to the bar if possible. I am just not at the stage yet, where I want to sit face forward and watch people drink. Baby steps...

Overall, my evening was as simple as simple gets.  BUT...it was full of love and laughter! I got to spend time with some of the people I value and love the most...my family!  Life doesn't get any better than that!  And...James and I already put up our new tree TOGETHER!  I always feel blessed to have the partner, I do, on this journey of life.

Quote and Pic:

This is my daughter, Reina, with our adorable puppy, Crystal.                 





Comments

  1. AnonymousNovember 11, 2022 at 11:05 AM

    Sounds like an awesone evening with your family. So happy for all of you.

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  2. AnonymousNovember 11, 2022 at 11:54 AM

    So proud of you!!! Creating great memories for those kiddos!!

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  3. AnonymousNovember 15, 2022 at 7:53 AM

    This is Beautiful, also such a beautiful gift for your family 🎄🎅🏻🎁♥️

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