Sunday Depression/Monday Mornings

 October 10, 2022

72 days

Monday mornings.  Oh boy!  This a topic that I haven't wanted to address!  The reality is, preceding my sobriety, a Monday morning meant HELL for me.  I was unhappy with so many things, beginning with myself, it was just a reminder of all the things I didn't accomplish the week before.  It was also a reminder of all the things I still had left to do.  

Prior to that "typical" Monday morning, my Sundays were usually spent trying to "Sunday Fun-day" somewhere! This could encompass a multitude of things, but at the end of the day it resulted in me drinking.  Drinking led to feeling like a complete disaster, and hence the next day...a Monday, off to a horrible start. 

Sunday Depression is very common.  Many people deal with anxiety related to the work week ahead, or even if you don't work, just the unknown of what's to come in the week ahead. This anxiety could be for a multitude of factors, but either way, we do know around 80% of people become more restless as their Sundays end and the reality of the next week sinks in. 

I cannot say I am completely cured of Sunday Depression or Monday Anxiety. (Whatever label you want to put on it. ) I do KNOW there are some things I HAVE to change in order to lessen my anxiety about the work week ahead.  I am currently working on making those changes. I also know that as I have worked to make changes about the things I KNOW cause my anxiety this has helped significantly lessen my Sunday Depression.  

So, what do I do on a "Sunday Fun-day" now? I actually HAVE FUN!  I am no longer TRYING to have fun.  I am no longer seeking something to fulfill me that is not sustaining. The only thing that sustains me is my self-worth  surrounding myself with the people I love, and my Higher Power. 

Yesterday was an extremely busy day.  I actually cooked breakfast! Yep, me? I can't believe it! James and I then spent the day fishing.  I truly enjoy every moment I have with him.  I did not appreciate my husband before like I do now.  I have always loved him, but it is just different now.  I value our relationship instead of something that comes in a bottle. Our vows are significantly important. I like to use them as a construct for the relationship changes and growth we experience. I cannot change the past, but through reflection, work to improve our future. Marriage, like recovery, takes WORK! 

I think one of the best ways to end our day is around the dining room table.  James and I have always tried to cherish that time around our dinner table.  This is such a meaningful place, where conversations are ignited, and we can actually learn about one another. Reina and Conner were both here yesterday evening!  Having both of them here is always special.  Reina also had a very dear friend over.  I truly enjoy laughing with those kiddos and listening to their perspectives of the world! I always find it enlightening.  


Here is a little fishing photo from yesterday! 
(Please ignore my hair and everything else! I was having a great time!)




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