90 days

October 29, 2022

91 days 

Yesterday, I celebrated my 90th day of sobriety!  This is quite an accomplishment for most people in recovery.  We truly are healing emotionally and physically from what we have tortured our bodies with in the past.  After 3 months, you physically begin to see the noticeable difference between a drunken hostage of the disease to a liberated human being. 

Emotionally, this has been one of the hardest times, in comparison to my other bouts of sobriety.  I attribute that to how unmanageable my life had become, therefore digging my way out, took a lot more work.  From day 0, I was desperate to get sober this time.  My disease was impacting many aspects of my life.  Actually, it was impacting ALL aspects of my life. That is easier to admit NOW. I literally had lost who I was, and wasn't even sure where to find her.  

Physically, my body had become bloated and very overweight.  I am still recovering from my final breast cancer surgery in May, so my excessive drinking had also hindered my full ability to heal.  I had become weak and uninterested in doing anything physically. My energy levels were in the tank, and nothing seemed to bring me back to life. 

Until...I got sober! 

I am learning that sobriety is a lot of work, and therefore it does have its emotional ups and downs that go with the territory.  I am still so new in this journey, I can only attest to what I've experienced so far.  I read that it is common to feel sad or confused at this stage in sobriety.  I can say quitting an addiction is almost tantamount to loosing someone.  Seriously?  Yes, seriously. It seems like you go through all the stages of grief that you MIGHT experience in loosing a loved one.  Why? I can't give you the medical reasons to support it, but I can tell you it is probably highly due to a physical and mental dependence that an addict has with their drug of choice. (Mine being alcohol.) 

This process is about rebuilding yourself.  Emotionally and physically you experience so many changes in the initial stages of sobriety.  So many of them are amazingly positive, while others, might feel a little dramatic and different. Through reflection, prayer, meditation, or whatever you choose, you can refocus your goals for each day. Hopefully even set some new ones. 

So, what can you do on your 90th day?  Enjoy yourself and the people that love you! Your support network is so critical, and I can almost guarantee you'll be delighted at the people that are cheering for you and your success! 


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 Last night we celebrated my dear friend Kimmie's birthday. This is such an amazing group of ladies (with their hubbies)!  They are tremendous friends, and just all of them are beautiful on the inside and out.  Their support throughout, not only my sobriety, but my breast cancer, has truly been remarkable! I am forever grateful to them for their unwavering loyalty.
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